this bio is only hip if i keep it simple, vague, and in all lower case letters.
July 10, 2011
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Hold me in your thoughts, take me to your dreams
Touch me as I fall into view
When the winter comes keep the fires lit
And I will be right next to you
June 29, 2011
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Man, I take way too much for granted. I’m sure that I’m not the only one either. You know, there may be problems, you may have a bad day or may be going through a rough patch, but take a step back and look at your life. Chances are that you really are blessed. It’s just so easy to forget about all the good that you have. You overlook the people that support you, because they love you and they’ve given you no reason to ever doubt the fact that they’d be there for you, so in many instances you don’t even think twice about them.
It’s always been a fear of mine that those around me will never really know just how much they mean to me. My parents, my friends, I’ve been incredibly blessed with the people that have played a role in my life. I wish I expressed my gratitude much more instead of taking it all for granted. I guess that thus far, change has been a common theme with my tumblr. Well that’s one more change that I want to make. I never even want someone to have to wonder if they’re important to me, because they absolutely are. Sometimes I feel that maybe I joke around too much and that my gratitude really is lost in that. But really, I’m so thankful for everyone that’s ever been there for me and helped me along the road of life. The love I’ve shared, the memories I’ve created, everything, it’s all so important to me. There have been so many people that have caused me to change, either by inspiring me or forcing me. Whichever way they did it, I’m thankful for it. I want to take a step towards putting a smile on the face of someone that I care for every single day. Sometimes all it takes is a word. Thanks.
June 27, 2011
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Why do we waste so much time with anger? We all do it, we’re all guilty. When you really think about it though, it’s such a petty thing. I’ve tried really hard to live my life not getting angry and holding grudges, but obviously I’ve had plenty of instances where I do. However, what’s the point of it all? We could choose to be happy, move on from problems and pain, and just let go of any bad thoughts, or we could choose to allow negative feelings to just destroy any hope of happiness.
Regardless of what’s happened, I think very rarely is it right to not forgive and forget. I know that in some instances, that’s impossible or extremely hard to do, or you’ve just no desire to do so. I know that I have certain people in my life that I won’t forgive for certain things, but those people really never made me happy. What I’m saying now is, if someone has made you happy, give them the chance to make you happy again. Chances are that it’ll make them happy too.
I guess another question would be: is it worth it? I really think that it’s hardly ever not worth it to make amends, and to try your hardest to be patient, understanding, and forgiving. We all make mistakes, that’s what makes us human. No one is perfect, and if they were, we’d probably hate them for that anyway. I don’t want to go through my life bearing a bag of burdens (alliteration) that could have/should have been solved. It’s damn hard though. You’ve gotta be willing to open your heart again and take risks. But without risks, what’s life? And what do you really risk? You risk that the person could make you happy again in one capacity or another.
Don’t let any problem, no matter how big, EVER destroy what good memories you had.
Guys, life is too short. I don’t want to live my life full of regrets for things that I should have said and never did, or for problems that could have been fixed and never were. You have to try your best to do what you can, and hope that it all works out. If it doesn’t, at least you can say that you tried, and you can take comfort in the fact that you were willing to put all of the shit aside. Some things just don’t work out though, unfortunately, and that’s life. But why not try? You might find that it won’t even feel like trying, and that it’ll all come naturally and effortlessly.
I’ve just been thinking tonight that I’ve burned some bridges and lost some friendships over pretty stupid things that could have easily been mended. Even if you don’t get the friendship back, you can move on knowing that everything is in the past and water under the bridge. It takes a lot of pride though to admit that you’ve made mistakes. However, swallow that pride in the pursuit of happiness if that is what you truly want. And most importantly, forgive yourself. Forgive yourself for any hurt you’ve caused, or any wrong you’ve done. You’ll always make mistakes, for whatever reason. You may have had good intentions, you may have had really terrible intentions, but whatever way, own up to them and don’t let them eat away at you. The worst thing that you can become is an agent of your own misery. Trust me.
Listen, if Weird Al and Coolio could bury the hatchet, so can you.
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Unreleased duet between Damien Rice/Glen Hansard. It honestly speaks volumes.
June 25, 2011
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May the grace of God be with you always in your heart. May you know the truth inside you from the start. May you find the strength to know that you are part of something beautiful.
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About love.
Love is such a crazy thing. It’s the only thing that can make you completely throw who you were out the window, and be willing to change for the happiness of another person. This can be a great thing, but it can also be such a dangerous thing. Recently, I’ve become a person that I really don’t want to be. I’ve been acting like the kind of person that I used to think was ridiculous.
However, it’s hard to help myself. Love really becomes a drug. It’s an addiction that some people have an easier time kicking. It’s baffling how in your mind, you can think that you’re doing a good thing, and you have good intentions, but it’s only after you’ve actually done it that you realize how crazy it all seems and how ridiculous what you just did was. You continuously dig yourself into a deeper hole until finally you’re just hoping that you dig enough to see light again. Personally, I’ve made a huge amount of mistakes that I’m not proud of. However, any mistake that I’ve made has stemmed from the thought of bettering circumstances and trying to grasp at a fleeting love.
I guess though, it’s important to realize that people are so different. What to you might seem sweet or thoughtful, could wind up just seeming like a burden or a nuisance to somebody else. It’s crazy how our minds can work in such different ways. It’s important though, to respect eachother’s different ways. I’ve not been doing that, and that’s where the problems come from.
The moment that you start needing someone else is the moment that you lose sight of who you are. I don’t want that to happen to me again. It’s ruined friendships, it’s destroyed happiness, and it’s burned memories. It’s so important to find love. It’s important to keep those close to you who truly care for you. It’s also important though to not need someone. Every now and then you’ll meet a person who makes you feel incredible, and you think that you need, but you can’t lose yourself in the whirlwind.
I’ve been legitimately embarrassed by the way that I’ve acted recently. This is not where I ever saw myself going, nor who I ever saw myself becoming. The good thing though, is that people can always change. If you aren’t who you want to be, then become what you want to become. Tomorrow is my 21st birthday. It’s a time for new beginnings, and a time to allow things to mend. I’ll always be fond of the love that I shared, but I’ll never be proud of the way that I acted when it was over. Knowing that you’ve become a burden on someone that you cared so much about is one of the worst feelings imaginable. But again, there is hope for change. I’m making a vow to change. I hope that all of the hurt that I’ve done will fade and that the only thing left will be the beautiful memories.
This is probably the realest that I’ll ever get on this thing.
June 24, 2011
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I must be an idiot because I’ve spent the last fifteen minutes trying to find out how to change my profile picture on this stupid thing.
Also, what is the general rule of thumb for how many posts I’m allowed to make per day on here? Also, it doesn’t even matter because no one can comment on this.
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I don’t feel like I’m cool enough to understand tumblr.
August 19, 2009
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It’s just you and me.
Alright Tumblr, I am sick of you just sitting here not doing anything. You never get off of your lazy ass and update yourself, so it looks like I’m going to have to do it. The only problem with that, is that I don’t have much to say. Look, I could sit here spewing my personal problems to everyone, but that would just make this blog look like a suicide note not fully realized. It’s not like anyone can comment on this thing anyway.
Well, how about this. I’ll tell you about some new happenings in my life. I’ve been trying to write some new songs lately, but I’ve always come to a problem in songwriting. It’s very hard to make honest lyrics without feeling foolish about what I am writing. This, ladies and gentlemen, is why I choose to write comedy songs instead. They are far less personal, and they don’t require me to look like a fool. Well, I do look like a fool, but for different reasons. Sure, I’ve written a few serious songs, but I’m not sure that they will ever see the light of day. With a comedy song, all you have to do is get the laugh, and the mission is accomplished. With a serious song, you need to make your listener feel something, either through the music or the lyrics. It’s difficult to do this without making yourself feel embarrassed in the process. It’s also difficult because you are constantly worried about that your audience will think of the song. You are worried that they’ve overestimated your abilities, or that they have no faith in you at all that they are deriving satisfaction from your artistic failure.
Either way, that’s enough for now. I’ll be back.
August 5, 2009
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This thing confuses me.
